How is my Japanese learning journey going so far, you may ask? It’s a bit rocky at the moment.
To be honest, I haven’t been studying as much as I used to. Lately, I’ve been mainly focused on writing and trying to grow. It’s been a wild and stressful couple of months. The last time I shared anything about learning Japanese or related topics was back in August, and it was a brief update about Gairaigo, loanwords found in the Japanese language, which you can read here on my blog.
An overwhelming sense of fear and exhaustion has driven the recent pause in my studies. I find myself hesitant to continue learning Japanese, questioning whether I’ll ever achieve fluency or have the opportunity to live in Japan. These feelings have since grown so intense that I had to take a step back.
This post reflects my honest journey and serves as a commitment to hold myself accountable. More importantly, I aim to express self-compassion and hope for myself, so I can move forward with my studies.
What Happened: Life Got Heavy
As the subheading suggests, “Life Got Heavy.” To be more honest, I’ve come to realize that stress has taken a significant toll on both my mind and body. Despite my efforts, I often find myself striving for an unattainable level of control over my circumstances. With the chaos of the world and the burdens of adulthood weighing heavily on me, I feel like my life as a twenty-something has slipped into survival mode. It’s a surreal feeling, honestly. It’s as if my body is trying to give up while I desperately push myself forward.
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